Graduation

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we’re gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won’t be coming back
No more hanging out cause we’re on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don’t have another day
Cause we’re moving on and we can’t slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn’t know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we’d get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life’s not fair

And this is how it feels

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As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won’t interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it’s like we’re women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us ’round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it’s not goodbye
Keep on thinking it’s a time to fly

Summer, not quite.

There is no doubt that summer is officially here. I’ve finally given in and decided to move my sweaters to the suitcases, because I’m simply don’t have enough hangers for the newly added summer wardrobe and the closet is starting to look a bit claustrophobic. This could also be the start of…packing. Packing up my life here at Duke for the very last time. It’s going to a sad exercise.

But I’m not quite done yet. Before I can throw my hands up in celebration for the completion of this semester, and college, there are just several more papers and one last final to be done. And then…and then it’s graduation, saying goodbyes, and going home. I don’t think I ever imagined college graduation very much. I kind of stopped anticipating the future because I got too busy figuring out the present. I remember all through out high school I impatiently waited and dreamed of college; in fact, my whole life I’ve looked forward and fantasized about college. Once I got here, the dreaming, the fantasizing just all stopped. Staying on top of the present was enough to occupy all of my thoughts, tomorrow will come, and usually sooner than I expected.

After this summer I won’t be coming back. Somehow, I imagined four years to last a bit longer than this.

Why do I have to pick?!

The main reason I’m a double major is because I didn’t want to pick. If I like A and B and I can’t choose I just get both (this is a terrible mentality when I’m shopping…but that’s beside the point). Except apparently Duke only awards ONE diploma, regardless of how many majors I have completed. Which means:

  1. I have to choose between graduating with B.S. or B.A. (apparently I’m receiving the B.A. as of right now)
  2. I have to choose between wearing a gold or white hood (I bought the gold)
  3. I have to choose between sitting with my friends (who are all econ majors) and being at a much more personal and smaller ceremony.

To make matters worse…I’m probably graduating with distinction in economics (which is my second major now) but I’m receiving a B.A. for philosophy. How the hell is this suppose to work?!

I don’t understand why Duke can’t just give me a B.A. AND and B.S. and allow me to attend both the econ and philosophy diploma ceremony. I hate having to choose 😡