Looking forward to (a still undecided) summer

if you have been reading my blog regularly (which i really don’t expect anyone to especially since I have been so terrible at writing regularly), you would probably notice the generally…negative tone of my posts. But if you know me at all, you would also know that I’m not really a negative person most of the times. So from now on, I’ll try to blog more, especially about happier and lighter things!

To say that this semester, or rather this entire school year, has been rough is almost an understatement. With the finals coming in approximately two weeks, write-on competition immediately following that, and no summer job in sight, I’m surprised that I am not losing hair or sleep. But in the midst of all this stress and worrying, there are still a few things that manage to keep me sane and dare I say, relatively happy.

To begin with, Han and I have found a new apartment in a nice little community and fantastic location. We are planning on moving in between the end of my finals and the beginning of write-on week. On top of that, we have also been looking at bunnies for adoption. The ordeal has proven to be much more time consuming, and costly, than we have expected, BUT after seeing and playing with the bunnies I just can’t stop thinking about them. I currently have my eye on one extremely fluffy lionhead mini lop mix, who really looks more like a white angora with floppy ears. It doesn’t like to be held, but surprisingly tolerated me holding i for a good minute or so before leaping out of my arms. What really sealed the deal was that it gave me a “kiss” (a bunny lick) after hopping around and occasionally placing its paws on my lap a few times. The adoption director said it liked me; I can’t disagree 😀 Unfortunately we won’t be bringing the bunny home until after we move to the new apartment. So meanwhile I will try to make a few more visits to the bunny and hoping that it doesn’t forget about me :\

 

Persistence

I’m tired, stressed out, out of shape and often find myself just wanting to quit…but I can’t. Giving up is not an option, and every day is a new day, and every day brings new hope. As long as I have another day, I will keep fighting.

Contradiction?

I loved Duke and I always will. I have always spoken fondly of it and I will never hesitate to tell anyone how wonderful my four years were, and how eternally grateful I am for every opportunity I received from (or because of) Duke, still receiving, and will receive in the future. BUT…

I don’t miss it. I miss how ridiculously spoiled I was by e-print and the Link, the gym, and the Duke Gardens, but no I don’t really miss being there. Maybe some day I will, but I don’t think that day will come any time soon. That’s why I’m not going back, and won’t be for a while.

Are these two reconcilable? Or are they simply contradictory and don’t make much sense like some (or lots) of the U.S. Supreme Court opinions I have been reading?

…and I’m back!

Back to god-awful weather in St. Louis, back to school, back to painfully dragging myself out of the bed every morning at 8:00 (by that I really mean 8:20), and back to the life of a 22-soon to be 23-year-old trying to make it in this funny world where the most emailed article on NYT for 3+ days consecutively decried the utter irrationality of attending law school. (I still can’t bring myself to read it. Ignorance is bliss xD). Ok, so there’s really nothing humorous about the dismal state of legal profession in the United States…maybe I’m just desperately trying to find something to laugh about when really I should be very, very worried. (I am, and according to one of the 304983 attorneys that spoke to us during Intersession, it’s my freakin’ job to worry – aren’t I perfect for this profession.)

A quick recap of my life since I last wrote here (which I believe was somewhere in the middle of a nightmare that i’d rather not remember, aka finals.)

  • winter break was nice. it was a surprisingly mild winter in Cleveland this year. And as usual, I enjoyed two weeks of doing not very much and the luxury of being bored.
  • Las Vegas…with family. And Grand Canyon. It was…interesting. ’nuff said.
  • ten hours drive from atl to stl, on top of the three days road trip to grand canyon means i don’t want another road trip for a very very very long time.
  • intersession, aka orientation 2.0, aka omg i’m so tired i’m almost glad that it’s over and now i have classes. actually, can I just go back to winter break, plz?
  • FDOC! (the exclamation mark is really there for the sole purpose of convincing myself that there is something to excited about on fdoc…but not really.). already I’m falling asleep in ConLaw class and the lecture in CivProc just won’t stick to me (when I actually manage to hear it in those rare moments). what a start, eh? highlight of the day: drawing decision trees in legal practice for settlement v. trial – I’m such a game theory dork; some things never change.

almost forgot, another fantastic piece of nostalgia of the day: I’m reading an excerpt from Chemerinsky’s ConLaw book. I miss that guy *sigh*.