2010

All of a sudden 2009 seems so dated. Here we are at the turn of a decade and honestly, it feels just like another new year. The rush of need to come up with novel resolutions in the hopes of becoming a better person consumes me while I secretly wonder about the practicality and meaning of this ritual. Then I look back at 2009, and wonder how I can best generalize the last 365 days into a few insightful conclusions.

It was the best year I have ever had in terms of GPA, but I wonder why it does not translate into any sense of accomplishment. To be honest, 2009 seemed a bit disappointing. I suppose I grew up somewhat, but the idea of really growing up still terrifies me. It’s strange, but I sometimes wonder what the hell have i been busy pursuing the entire year? The papers, and projects, and problem sets that consumed my days at Duke lead to nothing but a 4-digit number on ACES. The knowledge and skills, if you could even call them as such, that I’ve acquired only quickly fade away as I board the plane on my way home. So I’m left with a number that I can’t complain about, but nor do I feel particularly accomplished. Maybe I just need to do something practical and see my knowledge transformed into more material than a number. I think my sense of lack of accomplishment comes from the fact that I don’t really know what I’m good at, I mean really good at. For much of my college career all I wanted was to get that 4.0 while also taking classes I found interesting and useful, and now that I have for the entire year, it all seem so meaningless and insignificant.

Maybe I’m outgrowing this whole college thing. I guess it’s really time to graduate.

One Comment

  1. i know what you mean. I feel like its time for us to fly out of DUke and make our mark in our world! ^_^

    But I do know that I will miss Duke a lot… and miss the safeness of being inside a bubble…even if that means perkins library XD

    Like

    Reply

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s