Coach scarf $15, Coach wallet $30, Dior perfume sample: free

MAC Paint Pot in Moss $11, Clinique Eye shadow quad in Polar Blue $14

Tommy H T-shirt $9, RL skit $29.99

since I’ve been shopping so much this summer, and acquired a number of items (mostly clothes, accessories, and make-up), I think I will photograph my new addition to my collection of pretty stuff 🙂

Since I’m lacking inspiration for photography, this might just do the trick. Or maybe I just need another excuse to justify the $$$ I’ve been spending….

not much. i’ve been pretty much MIA for the past month because well, life has been rather uneventful and therefore there’s not much to say about it. the proximity of my house to the mall is having a devastating effect on my wallet, or credit card bills. the extraordinary amount of time I have are spent reading, watching movies, playing go, bridge, tennis, all more or less an attempt at procrastinating test-prep (because we all know the evils of that).

on one hand I’m looking forward to going back to school so I have more pressing reasons to get up in the morning, and more short-termed pressure for me to work. on the other hand, I’m finally spending an extended amount of time at home with my mom for the first time since…I came to college. the prospect of leaving and not knowing when I will be able to have this again is rather depressing. but i guess we all have to grow up one day, so that’s just that.

in the end, I’m just craving…assignments (short-term), as odd as that might sound.

Being left is worse than leaving. I’m almost always the one leaving, for college, for home, for Europe, for the States, especially in the past year or so. If it’s not my parents it’s my friends, I’m always leaving, packing up, and saying goodbyes. Leaving might be difficult, but being left is always infinitely worse for me. I’ve always been especially averse to being left ever since I was little. I hated it when my parents left me. Saying goodbye is always hard, but when you are the one leaving you are soon occupied with your new destination. But when you are the one who’s left behind, you are confronted with a horrible void and plagued with a handful of lingering memories that you simply don’t know what to do with. There’s nothing new to distract you from missing what used to be there. So you sit there and carefully process and pack away the memories for a later time, hoping they won’t come out at night and bite.

It’s good to have long talks with friends and catching up with everything in their lives. It’s even better that I can pick up at any time with these friends and just pick up from where we left off. I think ever since going off to London, I haven’t really been keeping up with most of my friends. Even when I came back over Christmas, I didn’t have the chance to really catch up with everyone. For the first time in a year, I’m finally not jetting off to another continent or being caught up with school and whatnot (I swear when I’m at Duke, it feels like another life). Now I can pick up the phone and just talk to anyone for hours and not feel guilty (I can only stand so much of LSAT in 24 hours). 

It’s so good to see all my friends doing so well and being on track and materializing their dreams. I love it when a friend tells me that what she wants and that what her plan is for getting their. Of course, we are all still worrying about gpa, scores, and offers, but the future and dreams we used to talk are suddenly right in front of us. We are not longer all doing the same preparatory work anymore, the things we are look working for are becoming more and more concrete every day. Instead of the SAT’s, we are taking MCAT’s and LSAT’s. Before we know it, we’ll be sitting for the board and the bar and cpa’s and cfa’s, and beyond that is the reality that we dreamed of before we even knew what these acronyms stood for. For the first time in my life, I feel that this is the defining stage of our lives.