1.5 more weeks of class, which translates to: two more papers, two more game theory ps, one last logic ps
followed by 1 week of finals: two. manageable, with decent number of days to study for each
post-final to June 8th: LSAT.
The beauty of college life is that everything moves so fast, you can actually feel the changes and see the future coming towards you every day.
I’m so glad I finally got to see this movie. From the start, I knew this was a movie that I would love, and tonight I was proven right. No one would call this movie “entertaining”, but it was as thought provoking as a movie can be. It definitely calls into question the so-called middle-class American Dream, the cookie-cutter suburban fantasy that came out of the 50’s and still persists today. Yet more than the movies of that disparage that same era of full skirts, prim curls, and equally flawless lawns, this movie really nailed the horror of this deceptionally beautiful ideal and brought it very close to home. If you strip away the time and modify the clothes a little, I can see the faces of Frank and April being replaced by many people I know; frightening, yet true.
Cookie-cutter ideologies are so attractive because they offer the comfort of comformity. But lurking behind that “everything is just going to be peachy” facade, is the stifflying of individual dreams and passions – the definitions of our characters, and the essence of living. Of course it’s easy to say “never let go of your dreams,” and “always stay true to yourself,” but even now, I can sense and see how those dreams may defer to what we call reality. We see this when our peers take classes they have no interests in (let’s be honest, how many people are genuinely interested in the material taught in that infamous course whose title rhymes with ‘lock’?), but do so anyway to pad their gpa. It begins with trading interests for GPA, challenge for security, passion for money, where does it stop? Maybe it begins with a necessity, real or perceived, and then somewhere down the road, we begin to fabricate what we “have to do” and what is “realistic.” The day we begin to dismiss our dreams as fantasies is the day we have given up to resignation.
I hope that day will never come for me and my friends. We are more than that, and our dreams deserve every opportunity we can find.
I know the border lines we drew between us
Keep the weapons down,
Keep the wounded safe;
I know our antebellum innocence
Was never meant to see the light of our armistice day.
In the spring,
We climbed the rolling hills
And talked about our budding plans.
And we smiled,
Our faces like a mirror
Showing us our secret sides.
But then the fights…
The sharp words splintering the night,
How I couldn’t be what you’d need…
But oh how I could make you bleed…
I know the border lines we drew between us
Keep the weapons down,
Keep the wounded safe;
I know our antebellum innocence
Was never meant to see the light of our armistice.
But how much would I give to have it back again?
How much did we lose
To live this way?
You’ll go home…I’ll stay here
Seasons keep on marching
I’ll stay here…you’ll go home
With only strangers watching
I’m glad my birthday is before april, i.e. when all hell breaks loose. At least if you are a college student (in an American college, on semester schedule).
To add to the looming paper deadlines and finals and whatnot, I have 8 hours of LSAT classes every week. Gaaah. I wish they didn’t cancel the Durham class, then I wouldn’t have to watse two hours on the road every week 😦 This week has been terrible so far. I’m looking forward to the Friday, when I will be getting a message, my EL order, and watching Revolutionary Road (finally!!), oh and I get to register for my photoclass at midnight. Woot.
Other than that, I’m just exhausted. Except I can’t nap, cuz then my sleeping schedule will remain messed up. I guess I’ll do game theory ps, or call people 😀
Yay, I just finished the game theory problem set and the logic problem set 🙂
So the last proof on the logic ps had 54 steps, at least mine did. If I wasn’t anal about all the disjunctions being in the right order and double-negating everything, maybe I would had saved a few steps, but that still puts the entire proof at somewhere around the monstrous number of 50. Wtf. Not that the proof itself was too mentally chanllenging, but it was still long and tedious. Now I just have to sort through the stack of my solutions and organize the final copy to be turned in on friday.
And game theory was just, bleh. Of the two questions, one I am certain of my solution, but I don’t really understand the economic concept behind it (I just know the math must be right :D). The other I understand the concept, I think, but I’m not sure what the solution is suppose to be. Hmph.
Plan for the rest of the week:
I’m really gonna hate tuesdays and thursdays starting next week. My day will officially go from 8am-10:30pm. T_T
Oh, yeah, I saw Dashboard Confessional. It was fun, minus the fact that I was dead tired 😦
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